Speedway

My emotions effect a great deal of my thoughts. Like if I get ticked off there is no way I can calm myself enough to make a right decision so I simply try to leave and go off by myself and try to relax myself enough not to explode on anything. Its kind of like when the Proctor explodes in front of the law when they try to take Elizabeth. That’s what I try to keep myself from doing stupid things like that. When I end up getting angry I don’t like the feeing or anything of the sort cause it drives me crazy if I think about it and then I will just get more angry so I try to steer away from it. I can’t tell how many times I’ve come so close to screaming at the top of my lungs at my parents. I try to be nice and I don’t think I’ve exploded on anyone like I feel like doing sometimes. I have come so close to letting my anger cloud my judgment and I guess it has, because I’m ticked off and I make the bad decision and skip out on homework and what not. So my anger I guess has really affected my decisions in doing my homework but not really in real life. I never have just done something that I would regret later because even if my mind is clouded with some emotion I still know how to shut up and just try and walk away no matter how bad it is. The Proctor when hears Elizabeth is going to be taken away instead of just letting it go and try to relax he gets to the point to where he explodes. Then this entire book is starting to anger me because of the fact that all these people are so stupid they would believe a group of some girls that were supposedly doing “witchcraft” and now are saints and they are doing work of God when they are doing nothing by getting farther ahead in there own lives to make themselves feel better. If these ladies believe in God then they should now by committing the sin of kill others then from the religion from what I know states they are actually going to hell.